50

Today I have 3 months of addiction recovery from food.  What a fantastic feeling it is to be in the right frame of mind when it comes to food.  I hardly ever think about food now.  It used to be a constant running thought, "what can I eat, where is that candy, when can I go to the store to get junk food, will Tom notice, you're so fat(I recognize this as not my own thought), I hate my body, I hate how I feel, where is that candy bar, one lindt truffle is enough, your an idiot for eating more(again not my own), how many calories have I consumed, how do people eat just one, how did I just eat the entire bag.."  and on and on and on.  Now I feel hungry at meal time, eat, and I am done.  My brain is clear and I can focus on the tasks at hand.

The scale and the measuring tape have been showing good numbers as well.  I weigh 226.4 lbs.  That means I lost almost 14 lbs. this month.  As far as inches, I've lost another 11 and 3/4 inches for a total of 56 inches lost in the last 3 months.

I am so much more active now.  I attribute that to carrying 50 less lbs. around with me.  50 lbs!!  I walk 3 days a week and play basketball 2 days a week.  I love it!  I feel really good.

I had been really sluggish as well, but after talking with my husband I realized I was still sleeping like an addict.  I would go to bed after midnight some times at 1 or 2 in the morning.  Then, I would wake up at 5 to talk with my sponsor.  I have committed to a 10 pm bedtime now, and I am getting 7 hours a night.  It makes me feel so much better! I am considering a 9 o'clock bedtime.

This program has saved my life.  I am grateful  and happy.